Well this summer just flew by! When I graduated from grad school in May, I thought that the end of August seemed so very far away. It was May 15 and I wasn't leaving for Hungary until August 21, for goodness sakes that's just over three months! A quarter of a year! I'm not sure where those three months went, but here I am on Thursday night thinking about how I will be on a plane bound for Germany in exactly three days. Wow. People keep asking me how I'm feeling about it, and I honestly don't know how to respond. I'm very excited, but also quite anxious about everything. I'm of course nervous about the move itself and getting settled, but also that school starts two weeks from today is slightly freaking me out. I'm so focused on actually getting there that the fact that I will be teaching very soon sort of falls on the back burner. Then I start thinking about it, and start getting very stressed. I settle myself down by trying to focus on the positive aspects of the situation, which of course are many, and to remember that I've always finished what I've started successfully. I try to look at teaching abroad as another challenge that I will face and succeed in tackling. We'll see what happens.
It seems that just before something big like this is going to happen, a roadblock or test of sorts must come up in order to test your resolve. I don't know if that's true for everyone, or just for me, but that has been a common occurrence in my life and this trip has been no exception. As some of you may know, gory details and all, I've had a bit of a medical scare over the past few weeks. I won't go into those details here, but I will say that I had a minor procedure yesterday to rule out some pretty scary things before taking this journey across the sea. Luckily, all was well and the minor problem that I thought, and the doctor thought I had was in fact the only issue found. Whew! I would have been devastated if I would have had to cancel all of this because of my health. I've always had health problems, and I've always made a conscious effort never to let those problems limit my life in any way. I feel that I am going with many tools in my arsenal, and that I have the ability to manage this minor setback while I am in Hungary. This little scare has also had the positive effect of showing me my true feelings about the trip. If this opportunity had been taken away from me due to something beyond my control such as my health, I would have been incredibly upset. I really think that is priceless information that gives me positive vibes going forward!
And for those that are wondering, the packing is going well I think. I have my lists keeping me on track, and I'm hoping I won't forget anything major. I think this will be my last post before I leave for Budapest, so wish me luck and keep me in your thoughts and prayers as I take this big step!
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